Fantasies

Throughout the day I often find myself fantasizing about my Mistress. I imagine being told to go up the stairs to her room, strip and wait. When she come into the room I am ordered to undress her. As I carefully remove her clothing I drink in her naked body. She then lies back on her bed and orders me to begin orally pleasing her. I kneel beside the bed and begin to use the flat of my tongue to lick her cleanly shaved pussy. The aroma and taste are intoxicating. I can feel her clitoris begin to harden as she begins to get wet from excitement. I insert a finger into her pussy and begin to move it in and out with the rhythm of my tongue. After a while she instructs me to get up and lay on the bed on my back. When I am positioned she straddles my face placing her pussy on my face and begins to grind while telling me to lick her now very wet pussy. She is now smothering me and alternately grinding her pussy and ass across my tongue. As  her pace quickens she cums and coats my face with her juices. After a brief recovery she then instructs me to masturbate my stiff cock and tells me to shoot my cum on her pussy. After I have a very powerful orgasm she then tells me to clean up my mess. I then proceed to clean my sperm from her body which gives me yet another chance to lick her cum covered vagina till it is completely clean. After I clean her body with my tongue I then draw her a hot bath so she can relax while I wash her body. When she is finished I then dry her and help  her into her clothing before I am dismissed.

Another fantasy I have it one where I am told to report to Mistresses house and when I arrive she is getting ready to go out. I am told to strip and once I nude I am instructed go upstairs and lie on my back on the bed. She then attaches the spreader bars to to my angles and wrist and instructs me to remain there until she returns. I lose track of time but when she returns she gets on the bed and straddles my face and tell me to clean her pussy. I soon find out that her pussy is full of another mans cum and it begins to coats my face as I try to clean her pussy as best I can. After she has a forceful orgasm I am unbound and told I am finished for the night so I leave without an having the opportunity to have an orgasm.

Punishment

Last Friday my Dominant instructed me to come to her home for two different reasons. One, she wanted to see the sex toys that I had purchased at her direction and secondly, she wanted to administer the punishment for me masturbating without permission. I arrived on time and  before she could inspect my purchases, she directed me upstairs for my punishment. I was instructed to strip all of my clothes off. She placed a dark colored pillow case loosely over my head so I could not see what she was doing. I was told to kneel and then to drop down on all fours. She then took a leather paddle and struck my bottom 10 times – one for each letter in the word masturbate. The first few blows were not too painful, but with each blow the pain grew progressively worse. I was thankful for the 10th blow. 

I was then told return to my knees and hold my hand out. My Dominant squirted what I thought was lubricant into my outstretched had and instructed me to masturbate. I quickly learned that the “lubricant” was a mentholated salve, which instantly started to burn. This was bitter sweet, since I was actually being allowed to masturbate but the burning sensation was painful. Despite the pain, I was aroused and erect. I was instructed to stop whenever I approached orgasm. I edged several times. I was then, thankfully, allowed to ejaculate. I was directed to ejaculate on a towel that had  been placed on the floor in front of me. I was not made to clean the ejaculate up with my tongue this time, so I sat there on my knees letting the rush of the orgasm recede.

As I stood up and started to put my clothing on, the burning sensation reminded me that I was still being punished and that I am owned. That feeling would last for the next 24 hours. I will never masturbate again without permission.

Practicing to Orally Please a Man

My Dominant recently instructed me to purchase a very life-like dildo to utilize when I train to perform oral sex on a man. While I have sucked a penis in the past, it has been quite some time and I am not sure how good I was at performing oral sex. I had no issue with this task, but when my Dominant said that I would be training and practicing in front of her, I instantly became nervous and apprehensive. It is still somewhat embarrassing to be naked in her presence. However, as with most every experience with my Dominant, there is always and mixture of humiliation, embarrassment, excitement, and tremendous arousal.

I not sure why, but I find it somewhat embarrassing and humiliating to stuck a penis in front of someone. I do not know what the training will entail, behind the use of the dildo that I purchased for sucking, but I am sure that my jaw muscles with be sore afterward. I have a small mouth so I am sure to gag, a lot, at first. I am mortified at the thought of gagging. The thought of taking a penis into my mouth, or any orifice for that matter, despite the fact that I am bisexual, is both appalling and arousing at the same time. The act means that I am subservient to another male. Then, I realize that I am actually subservient to my Dominant and that is my place as long as She wishes it to be.

It is also very arousing knowing that my Dominant has that control over my actions. In my previous post I did say that she had control over every orifice so I have no doubt that statement will become a reality. My other thought is that I hope I can perform to her expectations. When I am asked to perform this act on a man of her choosing, I know that my performance will be a direct reflection on my Dominant. I hope to make her proud of me.

I Masturbated Without Permission

I recently had been instructed I was not to masturbate again until I was in my Dominant’s presence. It had been over 14 days since my last release and it was getting harder and harder not to masturbate. Finally, last Sunday, I was thinking about orally pleasing my Dominant and could no longer control myself. In a moment of weakness, I disobeyed my Dominant again by masturbating my penis to orgasm. 

I fully expect to be punished for my transgression. I know I need to work on my self-control regarding my desire to masturbate. I realize that my orgasms belong to my Dominant.

Things I Would Do for my Dominant

1-I will communicate with my Dominant to make sure I understand my assigned tasks and how to please her.

2-I will learn what pleases my Dominant.

3-I will perform the domestic tasks that my Dominant requires.

4-I will orally please my Dominant whenever she likes.

5-I will allow my Dominant access to any part of my body.

6-I will perform foot massages for my Dominant.

7-I will worship my Dominants vagina to the fullest extent. I will use my tongue, fingers and whatever toy to make sure she is completely satisfied. 

8-I will complete all assigned tasks in the timely manner.

9-I will allow my Dominant to punish me as she deems necessary.

10-I will allow my Dominant access to any orifice of my body that she chooses.

11-I will allow my Dominant to control when I orgasm.

12-I will allow my Dominant to own my penis.

13-I will allow my Dominant to place me in chastity if she deems it necessary.

14-I will allow my Dominant to permit others to use me as she sees fit.

15-I will do my best to stay in the best physical condition as possible to please my Dominant.

16-I will research any subject that my Dominant asks, to better please her.

17–I will properly clean and store all toys associated with my sexual activities

18-I will keep my genitals cleanly shaven.

19-I will wear a penis collar as directed by my Dominant.

20-I will wear a bracelet indicating that I am owned, as directed by Dominant.

21-I will allow my Dominant to dictate what undergarments I wear, if any.

22-I will purchase whatever sexual implements that my Dominant may require.

23-I will wear nipple clamps as my Dominant dictates.

24-I will wear a buttplug as my Dominant sees fit.

25-I will perform any sexual act that my Dominant may ask of me.

26-I will allow my Dominant to inspect my body to insure grooming standard compliance.

27-I will allow my Dominant to make me her cuckold.

28-I will clean up any orgasm I have at my Dominant’s direction.

29-I will allow my Dominant to push my limits to help me grow in this lifestyle.

30-I will allow my Dominant to direct me to perform sexual acts on/with another person of her choosing.

31-I will allow my Dominant to dictate when I am to be nude in her presence.

32-I will have safe sex, utilizing a condom, without exception, when sexually involved with my Dominant and those she may choose to share me with.

33-I will clean other male ejaculate from my Dominants body as required.

34-I will allow myself to be dominated by another Dominant if so desired by my Dominant.

35- I will post to my blog as required by my Dominant.

 36- I will perform any act with another submissive as my Dominant requires.

37-I will check my KIK app often to maintain communication with my Dominant.

38- I will allow my Dominant to submit me to any type of bondage she requires.

40-I will allow my Dominant to limit my alcohol consumption.

41-I will allow, and desire, my Dominant to push my limits.

42-I will allow my Dominant to restrict me from viewing pornography.

43-I will use my time wisely, to serve my Dominant.

44-I will always act in a way to bring honor to my Dominant.

45-I will not form relationships with others without permission and approval from my Mistress.

46-I will treat every female with respect.

47-I will never be boastful of my experience, as my Dominants submissive.

48-I will always thank my Dominant for both my punishment and my growth.

49-I will never reveal the identity of my Dominant.

50-I will always confess to my Dominant my transgressions of Her rules.

51-I will never touch my penis without my Dominant’s permission other than washing or urinating.

52-I will never sit with my legs spread or slouch in a way that is typical of males. I will sit with good posture, which is a sign of self-respect and respect for my Dominant.

52-I will use me tongue to lick and clean my Dominants anus as directed 

53-I will always be honest with my Dominant 

54-I will remove my Alt.com profile unless my Dominant ask me not to perform research on the site

55-I will always maintain good personal hygiene 

56-I will worship my Dominants breast

57-I will draw a bath and wash my Dominant if she desires

58-I will shave my Dominant if she so desires

59-I will accept any punishment without complaint

60-I will allow my Dominant to feminize me if she so desires

61-I will present myself to others of my Mistress’ choosing for inspection 

62-I will perform kegel exercises to better hold anal plugs

63-I will wear an anal plug at my Dominants direction

64-I will always strive to learn from the task given to me by my Dominant

 65-I will tell my Dominant my fantasies

66-I will perform fellatio as directed by my Dominants males and females  

67-I will allow myself to be anally penetrated by my Dominant and any other person she directs me to allow

68-I will make sure I am sufficient prepared to be anally penetrated 

69-I will accept ruined orgasms if so desired by my Dominant 

70-I will accept bruises as a result of punishment

71-I will kneel in front of my Dominant as a sign of respect when I directed

72-I will maintain eye contact with my Dominant unless otherwise direct

73-I will perform whatever act my Dominant ask in public 

74-I will open the door, pull out the chair and any other act of respect for my Dominant and any other female

75-I will strive to embrace the female led relationship lifestyle

76-If in a cuckold role I will make sure both my Dominant and her male partner are sufficiently cared for

Whore: Life v. BDSM & D/s

​ A whore, at first thought, is somebody that will participate in any sexual activity,  and who has multiple sexual partners. A whore will do anything for anybody as long as they are getting rewarded, be it with money, drugs, or something else that person requires. A whore will have sex with either sex and any sexual orientation as long as they are getting paid. A whore is considered a lower member of society. To be called a whore would be degrading to that person.

In the context of BDSM and D/s, a submissive would be whored out to others at the discretion of their Owner. Whether it be in person, with the Owner making the sub perform acts on or for another person, or by the Owner sending the whore out to perform sexual acts on another person or people, the whore would do as instructed without hope for personal gratification. 

I would not choose to be a whore in life, but I would willingly serve as my Mistress’s whore, as ordered, in the confines of O/our relationship. To acknowledge that I would willingly serve others at Her command causes my penis to become erect and ache for release. 

Perhaps Mistress will allow me to masturbate and ejaculate.

Pegging

​As I begin preparing to return home, I cannot help but think of the manner in which my Mistress will utilize me and violate me. I know that being pegged, and being at Her mercy as she violates me are in my immediate future, because She has told me so. I will beg, though i won’t know what to beg for. I will want Her to stop but i will want Her to take me again. And again. I never question whether She owns me, and Her penetration of my anal cavity will reinforce that knowledge. It is a entire range of feelings that run through my mind when She mentions pegging me. Excitement, fear and anticipation are just a few. I know that I am excited to submit to Her in any way that will further our Dominant/submissive relationship. To think of being put in such a vulnerable and submissive position causes my penis to leak for Her. The thought of my rectum being stretched by the rather large dildo that She owns is scary, yet makes my penis rigid. I have never had to accommodate a penis of that size. I can only imagine the feeling of being completely stretched and full I will experience. I truly look forward to Her violation of my rectum.

Cuckold

I define a cuckold as a submissive who is there to fulfill any and all sexual needs and desires of his Dominant partner. As Your cuckold, i will perform any actions required for Your satisfaction and pleasure. I will either be present as a man penetrates You and brings You pleasure or awaiting Your call to clean him from Your body. I will bathe You and prepare You for your date,  perform oral on Your date to ensure his erection, clean his ejaculate from Your body after he has an orgasm, and clean his penis of Your essence. 

Serving as Your cuckold is degrading but exciting and desirable at the same time. I think that, even though i am physically capable of pleasing You as a male, serving as your cuckold  enables me to fully realize the depths of my submissiveness. Prior to my service to You, I could only imagine watching a woman being pleased by another man. Now, I will gladly kneel and observe You being pleased by another man. You have pushed me well outside of my comfort zone and given me opportunities that I never imagined that i would experience.

The Perfect Penis

My Mistress asked me to share my vision of the perfect penis:

The perfect penis, to me, would be flesh colored, cut, about 8-9 inches long and thick. A large vein would run along the top of the length of the shaft, stopping just before the head. Smaller veins, having a slightly contrasting purple color, would run throughout the penis. The shaft would be ever so slightly smaller at its base but would be uniform in thickness with the head being slightly smaller as well. When I hold it in my hand it would have some heft to it. It would feel substantial. It would have to be rock hard to stand straight out because of the size but when it did, it would be completely straight with no curve to it at all.  When I placed my lips around it, it would be warm, almost hot. There would be no odor as I press my face into Him, but there would be a slight musky smell from the testicles. I would not be able to get it all in my mouth and after even a short time my jaw would begin to ache from opening so wide. The skin would be very soft and feel almost silky in my mouth. After a few moments there would be a slight taste of pre-ejaculate, as I pleasure Him.

My Christmas Gift

For Christmas, my Mistress gave me the gift of masturbating. I had not masturbated in many months. The circumstances and conditions associated with my deployment had not allowed for either communication with my Mistress to request permission to masturbate or the time and privacy to masturbate.

I awoke Christmas morning very early and instantly began to think of the gift She had given me. I began thinking about the times She had instructed me to stand naked in front of Her and my penis instantly became erect. I used saliva as lubricant and began to stroke myself. I closed my eyes and remembered back to the time that She had instructed me to kneel in front of Her, on the floor, and masturbate to completion…forcefully ejaculating as She watched. I then thought about the time that i was allowed to orally please Her, as a reward for a job well done. I then knelt between Her legs and masturbated, quickly ejaculating on Her belly. Then, the thought of licking my ejaculate from Her body put me over the edge. I came with such force that it took my breath away. I spewed my ejaculate into a wash cloth for what seemed like minutes. When i was finally able to catch my breath, i looked at the large amount of ejaculate in the wash cloth; it had been months in the making. I thanked my Mistress promptly for my gift, as my penis belongs to Her.

My Mistress gave me a wonderful gift for Christmas.